The Lord is so good.

I am writing this with 30 minutes left of my break for lunch during RA training. Everything feels busy right now. Life is whizzing by. My music residents move in on friday. Student Leaders moved in today. I have to have my hall done and decorated by tomorrow. The rest of my residents move in on the first which is in six days. We are in the process of finishing up the lobby decorations. Life is crazy. It is busy. But, the Lord is using all of this to shape me and mold me. That is for darn sure.

As I was walking back into the dorms after lunch, I had a wonderful conversation with my lovely “creative assistant” who is on staff with me, Tiffany. I had mentioned how things in my life right now are so uncomfortable. That my life just feels awkward and out of place. I am going through somewhat of an identity crisis. Losing who I was for the last three years of my life and gaining a new identity that Christ has given me (I like to think of myself before this summer Sarai and who I am now as Sarah HA-the Lord has given me a new name). Tiffany gave an analogy and I loved it. This summer, the Lord was slowly, but surely, patching up wounds that had been made on my heart. They were almost all the way healed before I got back to school. Certain circumstances have ripped them open once again; It hurts really bad and, sometimes, feels unbearable. My throat was tight and my eyes were welling up while she was talking. She said one day soon, the Lord will heal the broken-hearted and the crushed in spirit. He will heal the wounds that have been made. The Lord is taking the needle and piercing your skin to begin the healing process. And sometimes that is the hardest part.

As we walked into the freshly, decorated lobby, the word “unshaken” was posted in frames on the wall in front of me. I was stopped in my tracks. That word comes from Psalm 62:5-8 which is our dorm verse and theme. It says:

“For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him. He only is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken. On God rests my salvation and my glory; my mighty rock, my refuge is God. Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us. Selah” (Psalm 62:5-8 ESV)

 This verse is probably the theme of my life right now. Life is hard. Life is so not a cake walk. But, the Lord is good. The Lord is shaping me and molding me into the woman of God he so desires me to be. He ALONE is my rock and my salvation. In him ALONE do I wait and do I place my hope in. I think my favorite line in that whole passage is the last one…we can trust in the Lord and he is our refuge, so we are able to pour out our hearts to him knowing that he will protect us, that he will catch us if we fall, that he has our best intentions even in the hard and unbearable circumstances, that he will save us, and that he is good. He is so completely and perfectly faithful, and through him we can be “UNSHAKEN.” 

To Be Continued… =)