This is kind of a dull day. Finishing up papers. cleaning out the apartment. crying a lot. packing a lot of memories away-precious, precious memories-to only look at them once in a blue moon. saying goodbye to seniors and people who will not be returning to CBU. friends who will be leaving my life. roommate checking out. residents checking out. summer quickly approaching…today.

Life is flashing before my eyes. I am a Senior in College now. I no longer will have a roommate, since I will be in the dorms next year. I have 3 of my major courses to complete before I am finished. It all seems a little bittersweet.

Reasons for it being bitter:

1. I am not quite certain that I desire to say good bye to those people. I understand that I mostly do not have a choice in the matter, but time got ahead of me and I’m slowly running behind it to catch up to it. That is a hard reality to face.
2. I love CBU. I don’t want to only have one year left. I would like to live here for the rest of my life, but that is not reality.
3. I have so many others, but for the time being, they will be kept silent.

Reasons for it being sweet:

1. The Lord is good and his plan is perfect. He knows best, so this will all be for the best.
2. The people who are leaving are going to be moving on to greater and better things. Who am I to stop them for none other than the selfish reason of me wanting them to stay in my life forever. Like a mother bird, I need to let those people out of the nest and fly. Stupid analogy, I know, but it’s fitting.
3. I am also moving on to greater and better things. Although, this time seems so difficult and the end seems no where in sight, I know the Lord is leading me to greater and better things. I need to be patient and wait on him. That is the bitter part…waiting.

I will finish this blog post with an amazing letter written by someone writing as God writing to his children…