Category: Mary Stevenson

So, I have journaled religiously for the last 4 years. Started my senior year of high school and haven’t stopped since. It is pretty therapeutic for me actually. After I journal, it is almost as if I have dropped a backpack full of bricks from my shoulders and can think clearly. Along with my journals being filled with information about the past, it is also filled with prayers, sweet prayers, of how my God has provided for me and protected me. 

I am not saying this for you to feel bad for me, but I have been through a lot in the last 4 months; I say this to show how great my God is. All through the journal I was reading through just today, listed was prayer after prayer, whispers to the Lord for his help, strength, contentment, wisdom, love, faithfulness, goodness, kindness, peace, and grace. Reading through my most recent journal that I have almost completed, I have seen the Lord answer those whispers softly back to me in the most intimate way that only my Lover could do.

This morning I was looking through one of the journals I had recently finished up to find an event that had happened in my life before my boyfriend and I broke up. It was a pretty significant event but I couldn’t remember all the details. I was positive that I wrote it in the journal, but alas, I had not. As I was trying to find this event, I remembered more of the details. 

It was a school night and one of our good family friends was visiting us. She normally would go to my families house to visit, but we were all busy with homework and work so she visited CBU instead and then went out to dinner with my parents. Before she left, she wanted to give us a gift. That gift was a word of knowledge from the Lord. Normally, I am not so keen on those things because I get worried that someone is just spatting off words and not really hearing the truth from the Lord. This was quite the opposite. The reason I know this is that after the fact, it has proven true. (Note: those of you who have been given a word of knowledge by someone, please please please test it with scripture!!!!)

She said to me that the Lord is going to cover me like a warm, blue, fuzzy blanket. She said that it would almost feel like I was wrapped in the clouds. She had said that in this time the Lord was going to become my comfort and my lover. That he was going to provide for me and keep me safe and warm inside of his arms. How could I have forgotten that? It is only after the fact that I remember.

I wept when she told me that. I wept because I knew the Lord was going to completely rock my world and break me of the sins and idols I had built in my life. A month or so later, he did. I became single even after less than six months before I thought I would be married this summer. I had to completely depend on the Lord. The Lord became my comforter and lover. He was so quick to jump to provide for me. And that is what he is doing now. He is filling me with a peace that is beyond comprehension. Joy that is indescribable. A grace for people and circumstances that I never though I would have. This love and grace could only come from the Father.

And as I read through the journal that I wrote in just today, I cannot thank my God enough. I cannot stand here and not give the glory to Him. Because he has provided time and time again. Even when I thought my world was going to end. Even when I thought my life was over. He was there carrying me through the storm. And, ironically enough, the journal I have now is based off the “Footprints in the Sand” poem by Mary Stevenson. If you haven’t read that poem, please go to that link and read it. That poem describes my life the last 4 months. The Lord is so good!