Lover

More recently, as in the last 3 months or so, I have been going through quite the trial. This simply has to do with circumstances changing, people moving out of my life onto new adventures, a new schedule, the Lord completely breaking me and revealing the deep and utter sin that I still live in even though I have been saved by His grace, etc. The Lord has used the last couple of months in a huge way to sanctify me (make me more like him – holy…no where near where He is, but he is using the events to inch me closer and closer). I was up late last night packing, making fabric flowers, doing laundry, and other such tasks that needed to get done before leaving for my cousins wedding today. I turned on Kari Jobe. I went through a spurt of time where she was ALL I listened to. I got tired of her for a long time and we had to take a break…that break ended last night. Anyways, I was listening to this song and this song with the last couple of months in the forefront of my mind and realizing a little bit more of how the Lord has revealed Himself to me in the last 4 months, the last year, the last 2 years, for my whole life.

And this is it: Jesus is my lover. To those who don’t know the Lord that sounds ludicrous. But, oh boy, to those of us who know the Lord, that is one of the most amazing qualities about Him. And for so long, I didn’t view Him that way.

I suppose that is because for so long I was fighting with the Lord. Fighting with Him for my own will to come about. Fighting with Him to make sure that everything in my life went without a hitch. If Plan A did not happen, I had Plan B following close behind. I placed God in a box and compartmentalized him. I decided that what I wanted was paramount and anything else was not good. God was only there to dictate the rules and punish me when I didn’t follow them.

I am an idiot. Simply, an idiot.

If that is the only view of God I have, I am completely and utterly missing the point. Why in the world would God send His one and only Son to die for the sins of those who rejected Him just to make sure they were following the rules and to discipline them when they broke them? That would not make any sense. If that was His plan, the world would have been destroyed shortly after creating it. God knows what is best. And he desires to pursue us and desires to have a relationship built on love.

So as I sat making fabric flowers, packing my bag for this weekends festivities, and doing laundry, I started reflecting on the Lord’s pursuit of me for the entirety of my life and specifically in the last year. The Lord has pursued me wholeheartedly. He has sought me out to show me His love and longs to delight in me. I have rejected Him over and over again, yet he stands there with the same amount of grace and love with His arms outstretched, scars in His hands and feet. Wow.

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“You shall no more be termed Forsaken, and your land shall no more be termed Desolate, but you shall be called My Delight Is in Her, and your land Married; for the LORD delights in you, and your land shall be married. For as a young man marries a young woman, so shall your sons marry you, and as the bridegroom rejoices over the bride, so shall your God rejoice over you.”
(Isaiah 62:4-5 ESV)
“There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. We love because he first loved us.”
(1 John 4:18-19 ESV)

"Worthy of the Gospel of Christ"

“Only let your manner of life be worthy of the gospel of Christ, so that whether I come and see you or am absent, I may hear of you that you are standing firm in one spirit, with one mind striving side by side for the faith of the gospel, and not frightened in anything by your opponents. This is a clear sign to them of their destruction, but of your salvation, and that from God. For it has been granted to you that for the sake of Christ you should not only believe in him but also suffer for his sake, engaged in the same conflict that you saw I had and now hear that I still have.”
(Philippians 1:27-30 ESV)

For some reason, for the 21 years that I have been living on this earth and in a Christian home, I have never read this passage. Well, that is not entirely true, I have read it, but I just have always skipped right over it.

That was a mistake. This passage has such depth and substance to it. As I begin my weekly study on this, I am so excited and thrilled to see what the Lord opens up in this passage in my life and in my heart. If any of you blog readers out there would like to join me in the study, here are the daily questions to ask for the next five days. (Thank you to Maximize Your Mornings at inspiredtoaction.com for this helpful tool)

Day 1: Read the passage. Jot down any questions or general observations you have about the passage. Read the passage again.
Day 2: Read the passage three times, each time looking for different TRUTHS and listing your observations.

  • What does this passage teach about God?
  • What does this passage teach about Paul? 
  • What can I learn about my identity in Christ?

Day 3: Read the passage again, this time looking for and listing any PROMISES you find. If the promise is conditional, record the conditions.
Day 4: Read the passage and record any COMMANDS you find. Read the passage again, this time record anything you learn from the examples of others.
Day 5:  Journal through these questions:

  • How does my view of God line up with this passage’s teaching about God?
  • What is the Lord leading me to DO as a result of this passage? 
  • Pray and ask the Holy Spirit to do the work in your heart so that you may walk in obedience to this passage.

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Here are the corresponding dates. Some have already passed, but ENJOY!
May 16-20: Phil 1:1-11 Paul’s heart for God’s people
May 23-27: Phil 1:12-18 God’s purpose in Paul’s imprisonment
May 30-June 3: Phil 1:19-26 Paul’s desires: God’s people and God’s presence
June 6-10: Phil 1:27-30 God’s gospel-purpose for us
June 13-17: Phil 2:1-11 Paul’s charge towards unity through the example of Christ
June 20-24: Phil 2:12-18 Paul’s charge to Word-centered obedience
June 27-July 1: Phil 2:19-30 Servants of the gospel (examples to follow)
July 4- 8: Phil 3:1-11 The surpassing worth of Christ, our righteousness
July 11-15: Phil 3:12-21 Paul’s example: Press on toward the call of Christ
July 18-22: Phil 4:1-9 Paul’s plea: Pursue the peace of God
July 25-29: Phil 4:10-23 Paul’s contentment in God’s provision
August 1-5: Pick your own passage.
August 8-12: Pick your own passage.

"Live Simply in Order that Others Might Simply Live"

“Live simply in order that others might simply live.” -My “friend” Lindsay at Passionate Homemaking =)

This topic keeps coming up over and over again in my life. Ask anyone in my family and they will tell you that I am probably one of THE worst money managers in the whole entire universe…that is not an understatement. This is quite interesting because I am a very organized person and love to be organized. For some reason, this has not caught on in my money/banking world. After realizing how stupid and foolish that is, I’ve decided to make the change. A change away from making foolish decisions to making wise, God-honoring decisions.

It’s not like I spend money on lofty things like a new car or on lots of excessive things, I just don’t think before I spend. So, for example, I spend a day with friends and go out to eat, go get ice cream, go to a movie, and don’t record any of that or limit myself in any way. Before I know it *poof* the money has completely disappeared from my bank account never to be seen again.

It is quite unfortunate. One summer, I interned at a church and someone in the church gave us a pretty big chunk of cash as a gift for our service and I don’t even remember where that money went. One day it was there, and the next it was gone. There was (and is) a great, big, giant hole in my pocket. This needs to stop.

One of the huge reasons that I feel compelled to start spending my money wiser is because for one, I know soon a rainy day will come and I will NEED a cushion and something to keep me afloat. And two, I know that I have been given much so that I can give. I have been blessed with a job and all I do is spend that money on myself and any activity that I want to do, never once thinking about the other people who are less fortunate around me – who do not have a job, or have a job that pays very little, or who came across a series of unfortunate events, or or or. Simply, I have been blessed with much, so I need to bless others with much.

This is not only true for me financially, but it is true for me in all of my life as well. Me, a wretched, sinful person completely dead in my sin was given life despite everything I deserved. I deserve to go to Hell for eternity. I deserve to suffer eternally for all the mistakes and wrong doings I have done. I deserve nothing good. BUT I serve a great and merciful God. For example, Ephesians 2 tells us in verses 1-10 that simply, we deserve death, but God gives us life…now walk in that GRACE:

“And you were dead in the trespasses and sins in which you once walked, following the course of this world, following the prince of the power of the air, the spirit who is now at work in the sons of disobedience-among whom we all once lived in the passions of our flesh, carrying out the desires of the body and the mind, and were by nature children of wrath like the rest of mankind. But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ-by grace you have been saved-and raised us up with Him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages, he might be able to show the immeasurable riches of His grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. For by grace you have been saved through faith. This is not your own doing, it is a gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.”

This grace that we have been given should compel us to not only be completely satisfied in Him and Him alone, but it should compel us to want to share this amazing, perfect gift with others. There should be SUCH a joy within us to go to all the nations to make His great name known. This should happen. I am so completely and utterly guilty of it not. Why does it not?

Well, we (I) get trapped in the world, especially in America, of ME, MYSELF, AND I. It is all about me and what I can do to please myself. This is a deep, dark, black hole. And, mind you, it is only escapable through the cross. It is only escapable when you realize that Christ is the only way out of death and into life, when you realize He is the only solution to ending sin, when you realize that He is the only solution to correcting the anger, hatred, bitterness, selfishness, and sorrow. He is the ONLY one who can bring joy despite painful circumstances. He is the only one who can bring light to this dark world. He is our ONLY hope.

Questions to ask yourself: In what ways can I rearrange my budget (Or even make a budget…like I have to do) in order to spend under my means and provide for those who cannot provide for themselves? In what ways has the gospel changed my life and how do I go about sharing that GOOD NEWS with others? How can I allow the gospel to shape and form my life today? How do I “live simply in order that others might simply live”?

To Be Continued… =)

Beauty for Ashes!!!!!!!!!!

I was in a pretty poopy, horrible mood the moment I woke up. Not usually how my mornings are. Usually I am filled with Joy and Thanksgiving to the Lord. Today was different and I didn’t like it at all. I was so angry. I was dwelling in bitterness and getting myself NO WHERE FAST!!! I decided that reading the Word would be a great idea-it so was… The Lord is so good at providing everything we need. From the little things to the ginormous things! I also read out of My Utmost for His Highest. That was also a great idea. This is the reading for today:

“Yes-But…!”
“Lord, I will follow You, but…” (Luke 9:61)

“Suppose God tells you to do something that is an enormous test of your common sens, totally going against it. What will you do? Will you hold back? If you get into the habit of doing something physically, you will do it every time you are tested until you break the habit through sheer determination. And the same is true spiritually. Again and again you will come right up to what Jesus wants, but every time you will turn back at the true point of testing,until you are determined to abandon yourself to God in total surrender. Yet we tend to say, “Yes, but-suppose I do obey God in this matter, what about…?” Or we say, “Yes, I will obey God if what He asks of me doesn’t go against my common sense, but don’t ask me to take a step in the dark.”
“Jesus Christ demands the same unrestrained, adventurous spirit in those who have placed their trust in Him that the natural man exhibits. If a person is every going to do anything worthwhile, there will be times when he must risk everything by his leap in the dark. In the spiritual realm, Jesus Christ demands that you risk everything you hold on to or believe through common sense, and leap by faith into what He says. Once you obey, you will immediately find that what He says is as solidly consistent as common sense.”
“By the test of common sense, Jesus Christ’s statements may seem mad, but when you test them y the trial of faith, your findings will fill your spirit with the awesome fact that they are the very words of God. Trust completely in God, and when He brings you to a new opportunity of adventure, offering it to you, see that you take it. We act like pagans in a crisis-only one out of an entire crowd is daring enough to invest his faith in the character of God.”

Reading that was like a nice little slap in the face ridding me of my sin-THANK YOU LORD! I always find myself going back to my old ways of bitterness, hatred, and sin. The Lord has not called me to live in the flesh in which I once walked, but in His ways-the good works that he created beforehand that I should walk in them (Ephesians 2:10). After I got done reading that, I began to get ready. Beauty for Ashes came on by Shane and Shane. Another little slap in the face, but SUCH an encouragement. This song just repeats itself over and over again and this is exactly what I needed to have repeated over and over again this morning.

“Beauty for ashes
A garment of praise for my heaviness
Beauty for ashes
Take this heart of stone and make it Yours, Yours

I delight myself in the Richest of Fare
Trading all that I’ve had for all that is better
A garment of praise for my heaviness
You are the greatest taste
You’re the richest of fair.”

Thank you, Lord.


To Be Continued… =)

"Our Time is But a Breath, So We Better Breathe It"

This morning, as I was getting ready for work, I was listening to Michael Bublé. That is a normal occurrence for me – at least listening to some sort of lovey-dovey, romantic music. Whether I am single or dating someone, I always enjoy it because…well…I am a girl! 😉 Anyways, I had been listening to it and then changed it to country. After each song, I realized a little more how wrong their view of love was.

(How to say this without sounding ridiculous and completely cynical…hm…??) Well, I realized how lost our world is. They (including myself sometimes) are all so focused on the wrong things. They are focused on how a person – one very human, flawed person –  can satisfy their every need. Man, does that not work, or what?!

Been there, done that. Doesn’t work, doesn’t satisfy.

It has been an interesting journey the last month or so. I was (and am still) THAT person. I put all my eggs in one basket and that was very foolish of me. Hindsight is 20/20.

I placed that one, human person as the most important thing in my life…with all the expectations you should place on no one but the Lord. It was a set up for failure.

And that is what happened. It failed. I set up for myself my own personal idol and then turned around and claimed that the Lord is number one in my life. As much as you try to fight it, the Lord will strip you of those things. He will make sure that you put him first. He will make sure that you are broken in every way possible so that nothing but him is glorified.

If there is one lesson I could share with every girl, it is that MAN FAILS…they are not Jesus (they are not perfect or God). They can NEVER take Jesus’ place in your life. They can never, ever fill the all-satisfying hole that only the Lord can fill. They can’t do it. Even if they try with all their might. They could do everything you ever ask of them, but who wants to be “loved” by demand (I sure don’t; I want to be desired and wanted)!!!

I was listening to Brooke Fraser on my way home from my activities last night and she has a really good song called C.S. Lewis Song. Basically, it is a song that is filled with quotes and ideas that C.S. Lewis thought through in some of his writings. One of the lines that kept getting me over and over was this:

“If I find in myself desires nothing in this world can satisfy,
I can only conclude that I was not made for here
If the flesh that I fight is at best only light and momentary,
then of course I’ll feel nude when to where I’m destined I’m compared”

 So true. my desires are not satisfied by anything here on this earth. There are some days when I want nothing to do with this earth and my heart craves to be in heaven worshiping at the feet of Jesus. Unfortunately that time is going to have to wait, but for now I will conclude with the bridge to the song:

For we, we are not long here
Our time is but a breath, so we better breathe it
And I, I was made to live, I was made to love, I was made to know you
Hope is coming for me
Hope, He’s coming

To Be Continued… =)

"Pee on the Present"

One of my favorite sayings that I tell to almost every girl who isn’t content is “Don’t have one foot in the Past, one in the Future, and pee on the Present.”
I feel like this is the story of my life right now. I have to keep repeating this to myself so I don’t go crazy trying to play out the past and see where I went wrong. Or, spend too much time dreaming about the future and what I can do correctly when it finally rolls around. When I do those things, I am seriously missing something. I am missing “right now.”

Life is hard. It has its up’s and down’s. More recently, it has been a kinda lull in-between. I have had some extremely joyful times, but I have also had some “hit rock bottom” hard times. It is hard to balance the two. It is hard to trust the Lord that right where he has you is right where you belong. It is hard to not get lost in the day dreams of tomorrow and memories of yesterday. But, the Lord is so sovereign. He is soooo incredibly patient. He waits with me and walks with me all the way (Like the “Footprints in the Sand” poem =) ).

I don’t have any clue where I will be next year at this time. Who knows? Maybe India. Maybe in the Middle East somewhere. Maybe in Europe somewhere. Maybe I’ll be right here in Riverside. The Lord really is the only one who knows; I need to trust him. He is enough; His Gospel is ENOUGH!!!

Days like today, where nothing is particularly wrong, but something isn’t right…I need to trust him. I need to keep my eyes stayed on him. I need to not look to the right or to the left. I need to keep my hand on the plow and not look back. I need to RUN with strength and confidence in him. I need to not pee on the present all the gosh darn time and trust Him that where I am at is good and even GREAT!!!!!!!

Hope

By: Addison Road

(VERSE 1)

If everything comes down to love

Then just what am I afraid of

When I call out Your name

Something inside awakes in my soul

How quickly I forget I’m Yours

(PRE-CHORUS)

I’m not my own


I’ve been carried by You


All my life

(CHORUS)

Everything rides on hope now

Everything rides on faith somehow

When the world has broken me down

Your love sets me free

(VERSE 2)

When my life is like a storm


Rising waters all I want is the shore


You say I’ll be ok


Make it through the rain


You are my shelter from the storm

(CHORUS)

Everything rides on hope now

Everything rides on faith somehow

When the world has broken me down

Your love sets me free

(PRE-CHORUS)

I am not my own

I’ve been carried by you all my life

(CHORUS)

Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow

When the world has broken me down


Your love sets me free

(CHORUS)

Everything rides on hope now

Everything rides on faith somehow

When the world has broken me down


Your love sets me free

(CHORUS 2)

You’ve become my hearts desires


I will sing Your praises higher


Your love sets me free


(Your love sets me free)


Your love sets me free


(You love sets me free)


Your love sets me free


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xboucW89gUU



To Be Continued… =)

Beauty says, "All shall be well."

Part of submission to Christ is being content and satisfied in his will. When this occurs, it is a beautiful thing. I have been reading Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge. It is wonderful! They talk a lot about this in the first couple of chapters in their book:

           “And what does beauty say to us? Think of what it is like to be caught in traffic for more than an hour. Horns blaring, people shouting obscenities. Exhaust pouring in your windows, suffocating you. Then remember what it’s like to come into a beautiful place, a garden or a meadow or a quiet beach. There is room for your soul. It expands. You can breathe again. You can rest. It is good. All is well. I sit outside on a summer evening and just listen and behold and drink it all in, and my heart begins to quiet and peace begins to come into my soul. My heart tells me that ‘All will be well,’ as Julian of Norwich concluded. ‘And all manner of things will be well.’
           That is what beauty says, All shall be well.
           And this is what it’s like to be with a woman at rest, a woman comfortable  in her feminine beauty. She is enjoyable to be with. She is lovely. In her presence your heart stops holding its breath. You relax and believe once again that all will be well. And this is also why a woman who is striving is so disturbing, for a woman who is not at rest in her heart says to the world, ‘All is not well. Things are not going to turn out all right.’ ‘Like a fountain troubled,’ as Shakespeare said, ‘muddy, ill-seeming, thick, bereft of beauty.’ We need what Beauty speaks. What it says is hard to put into words. But part of its message is that all is well. All will be well.”

Submission is beauty. It is inviting to the people around the woman who is submitting because when a woman submits to the Lord, there is a peace and countenance about her that is indescribable. It is explained in this verse: “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus” (Philippians 4:4-7 ESV). This passage is the step by step process of submitting your will to the Lord. First, you make a conscious effort to not be anxious. Second, by prayer and supplication, you let the Lord know what your requests are. Then, third, the peace of God will guard your hearts and minds. This peace is indescribable. It is without understanding. It is supernatural.

This is the peace that comes from the Lord when we submit to his will. We need to focus completely on his will for our lives because his will is perfect. We may have our plans and the “perfect” way we think our life should go, but the Lord is the one directs our paths. In his perfect plan, we may find rest. “Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand…The fear of the LORD leads to life, and whoever has it rests satisfied; he will not be visited by harm.” (Proverbs 19:21, 23 ESV).

To Be Continued… =)

Your Love is a Song & Let It All Out

This song was so comforting to me this afternoon. Switchfoot’s Your Love is a Song:

“I hear you breathing in
Another day begins
The stars are falling out
My dreams are fading now, fading out

I’ve been keeping my eyes wide open
I’ve been keeping my eyes wide open

Ooh, your love is a symphony
All around me, running through me
Ooh, your love is a melody
Underneath me, running to me
Oh, your love is a song

The dawn is fire bright
Against the city lights
The clouds are glowing now
The moon is blacking out, is blacking out

So I’ve been keeping my mind wide open
I’ve been keeping my mind wide open, yeah

Ooh, your love is a symphony
All around me, running to me
Ooh, your love is a melody
Underneath me, and into me

Oh, your love is a song
Your love is a song
Oh, your love is a song
Your love is strong

With my eyes wide open
I’ve got my eyes wide open
I’ve been keeping my hopes unbroken
Yeah, yeah
Ooh, your love is a symphony
All around me, running through me
Ooh, your love is a melody
Underneath me, running to me
Your love is a song
Yeah, yeah
Your love is my remedy
Oh, your love is a song”

~~~

And this: Relient K’s Let It All Out:

“Let it all out

Get it all out
Rip it out remove it
Don’t be alarmed
When the wound begins to bleed

Cause we’re so scared to find out
What this life’s all about
So scared we’re going to lose it
Not knowing all along
That’s exactly what we need

And today I will trust you with the confidence
Of a man who’s never known defeat
But tomorrow, upon hearing what I did
I will stare at you in disbelief
Oh, inconsistent me
Crying out for consistency

And you said I know that this will hurt
But if I don’t break your heart then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember
The end will justify the pain it took to get us there

And I’ll let it be known
At times I have shown
Signs of all my weakness
But somewhere in me
There is strength

And you promise me
That you believe
In time I will defeat this
Cause somewhere in me
There is strength

And today I will trust you with the confidence
Of a man who’s never known defeat
And I’ll try my best to just forget
That that man isn’t me
Reach out to me
Make my heart brand new
Every beat will be for you
For you

And I know you know
You touched my life
When you touched my heavy heart and made it light”

Oak Tree > Acorn

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I just finished reading a book called Passion and Purity” by Elisabeth Elliot, and let me tell you…this book has blown my mind!!!



The last several weeks, I have been learning about submission and what that looks like in my life – being a single woman with out a man to even think of applying this to my life, I have been trying to figure out how this works. So, in submitting as I am commanded as a believer and Christian, who do I submit to then? This submission is different then the submission commanded for a wife to her husband. It requires our whole will, all of our might, and a surrender that is unlike a surrender any human could give to another human. This submission is paramount to the husband-wife submission. The phrase “submit to God” seems easy. Try applying the phrase “submit yourself to God” to your life and tell me how easy that actually is.



All to quickly, I want to do my own thing, submit to my own will, and follow the plans that I make for myself. But, being a Christian, I eliminate myself from those choices the moment I decided that I wanted Christ to Lord over my life. Mark 8:34-38 speaks to this: “And calling the crowd to him with his disciples, he said to them, ‘If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake and the gospel’s will save it. For what does it profit a man to gain the whole world and forfeit his soul? For what can a man give in return for his soul? For whoever is ashamed of me and of my words in this adulterous and sinful generation, of him will the Son of Man also be ashamed when he comes in the glory of his Father with the holy angels.’”

 As a Christian, I forfeit my rights as a human being and allow the Lord to control my life. That is a scary thought if you do not know the Lord, but when you begin to understand who the Lord is, it is quite freeing because he is so faithful.

In Passion and Purity, a section talking about submission to God really stood out to me. It says: “The growth of all living green things wonderfully represents the process of receiving and relinquishing, gaining and losing, living and dying. The seed falls into the ground, dies as the new shoot springs up. There must be a splitting and a breaking in order for a bud to form. The bud ‘lets go’ when the flower forms. The calyx lets go of the flower. The petals must curl up and die in order for the fruit to form. The fruit falls, splits, relinquishes the seed. The seed falls into the ground…. There is no ongoing spiritual life without this process of letting go. At the precise point where we refuse, growth stops. If we hold tightly to anything given to us, unwilling to let it go when the time comes to let it go or unwilling to allow it to be used as the Giver means it to be used, we stunt the growth of the soul.” 

This is remarkable. In my own life, I see this whole process occurring right now. There was a seed, it was planted, but before giving life, it has been broken from the life it was in, it has died, it has split and is now giving life to a new growth. Hindsight is most definitely 20/20. When the beginning of the trials had come into my life (The brokenness, death, and splitting), it seemed as though everything – life itself – was ending. But, to my surprise, the new life Christ desired for me to have was just beginning. I am only at the beginning stages of growth that the Lord desires for me to be at. This brokenness, death, and splitting is such a gift from the Lord. It is remarkable to me that I am actually able to say that now. 

Elisabeth Elliot continues later on that page: “It is easy to make a mistake here. ‘If God gave it to me,’ we say, ‘It is mine. I can do what I want with it.’ No. The truth is that it is ours to thank Him for and ours to offer back to Him, ours to relinquish, ours to lose, ours to let go of – if we want to find our true selves, if we want real Life, if our hearts are set on glory.”

It is so easy to get caught up in the game of it’s mine because the Lord gave it to me, but it is never mine. I never know what is truly best for me. If I do not understand this truth, it is sure to be plucked out of my hands (like this last year has been). In the past, I have held on too long. The Lord knows all and he knows what is right. Trust him and obey the moment he commands us to. It is crucial. 

“Think of the self that God has given as an acorn, It is a marvelous little thing, a perfect shape, perfectly designed for its purpose, perfectly functional. Think of the grand glory of an oak tree. God’s intention for us is ‘…the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ.’ Many deaths must go into our reaching that measure, many letting-goes. When you look at the oak tree, you don’t feel that the ‘loss’ of the acorn is a very great loss. The more you perceive God’s purpose in your life, the less terrible will the losses seem.”

Isn’t this the truth?! When I know a glorious oak tree is planned for me, in no way am I going to settle for the little tiny itty-bitty acorn. That would be foolish. I need to commit my way to the Lord and be willing to let it go of things that he has given me at one time if that should be His will because I know he has an oak tree destined for me. This seems easy to understand, but it is still difficult. 

I will conclude this post with a quote from another book I am reading, Disciplines of a Godly Woman by Barbara Hughes: “Does the word submission feel uncomfortable to you? Put it back into your vocabulary. All the disciplines of a godly woman [ or man 🙂 ] are about submitting your will to God’s loving rule in daily life. Reject the popular voices that entice you to put your needs first, to protect your self-interest and rights, to push at God-given boundaries. Search the Scriptures to understand how Jesus did it – and then follow His example – because Jesus Christ is Lord!”


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“Take Thou the full possession of my heart. Raise there Thy throne, and command there as Thou dost in heaven. Being created by Thee, let me live to Thee. Being created for Thee, let me ever act for Thy glory. Being redeemed by Thee, let me render unto Thee what is Thine, and let my spirit ever cleave to Thee alone.” 
John Wesley


To Be Continued… =)