Recap of 2011

I thought about going through each month of the last year and posting pictures of each month and write a little about what I did. The only problem with that is the last year of my life has been so full that I do not remember what happened when. So, I am separating my life this last year into sections rather than months. Enjoy!

Beginning of the year- I welcomed the new year with joy and great expectation for what was going to come in my life. I knew that something was around the corner but I was unsure of what it was. I started my last semester of my junior year.

Beginning about February, my life began to take some changes. My boyfriend at the time and myself decided to take a break, regroup after that month, and reevaluate our relationship. I began to hang out with my staff more often and pour into those relationships, began to be more involved with the youth group I was a leader of, began to pour more into my studies and focus on school, and most importantly, I began to pour my heart into the word and began to glean from those older and wiser than me on where the Lord should take my life next.

That month was one of the best months of my life. The Lord taught me so much! He revealed sin in my life that I had ignored, that I had chosen to neglect, and showed me how to reverse it (still working on that even a year later). It really was a sweet time of brokenness and surrender to the Lord. My heart was opened up to so much and freed from a lot that I had never given to the Lord.

I spent the rest of that semester enjoying the time I had as an RA in University Place with the amazing women that the Lord had placed on my staff. I finished planning events, working on papers and taking exams, and spending quality time with friends who were graduating and moving on from CBU.

In May, my former boyfriend and I decided to finally split. He left for the summer and I started work for the summer. The Lord used a time that could have been devastating and disastrous to such a sweet and intimate time with Him. I had some very low points, but they were covered with joy in hope in a savior who had provided for the biggest need – my utter and deep sin. I spent the summer learning and growing,  finding joy in singleness, finding out what my identity was in Christ, and who he created me to be.

I spent the summer working as a receptionist, hanging out with friends, going to youth group, small group, accountability group, singing on the worship team, and whatever other ministry I could get my hands on with all my extra time (such great times!!!!). I went to several weddings, a half a dozen or so beach trips/bonfires, pool side days with friends, moved from one house to the other, celebrated Matt and Bekah’s birthday, dinner/ice cream/coffee with friends, BBQs, went to the movies a ton, went to the drive-in, etc, etc, etc. I had a full summer all the while learning and growing so much about my savior and getting to know my church body as a single person. It was an amazing time!!!

August soon came and I moved into the dorms and began training for RA. I got to be apart of a staff that has blessed my life more than I ever could have imagined with friendships that will last a lifetime and sisters who I am indebted to forever.

The end of August came and I got to meet all of the beautiful residents I had been preparing for and praying for all summer. After quite a full year, those girls were a gift that I could not even explain. I have grown to love each one in their own way. Each a special gift from the Lord to me to continue the healing and growing process in my life.

This semester was filled with a gift a day under my pillow (pictures bellow), late night conversations till 3AM, early morning classes, events to Casey’s Cupcakes and the Mission Inn, beach bonfires with the Hall, monday duty nights, class after class with Taylor =), many disneyland trips, my first adult trip to Seattle to visit Emily, lunch dates and coffee dates with friends, bought my first car, and so much more. It has been a such full, unexpected (in a good way) semester and I am looking forward to my last semester of college. I am so thankful that the Lord has provided and protected for me in more ways than I can count. I am so thankful that the Lord’s plans are better than mine. I am so thankful for this year of growth and learning! I am just thankful for 2011. It is a year that I will always hold a special place in my heart for so many reasons.

Enjoy the pictures (there are a LOT)!!!!

RA staff ~ 2010-2011

Kelly and I – Sarah and Kris Corso Wedding

Ashley and I – Corso Wedding

Bekah, Ashley, and I – Corso Wedding

Kelly and I in our natural state 😉

Sarah Corso and I – Her wedding =)

Sam, Sarah, and I

Paula, Charlene, and I – Spring Semester 2011

Disneyland with Sarah Trout and Liz Hild – Spring break 2011

Emily made me breakfast for my birthday – March 27th, 2011

UP RA staff retreat – March 25-27, 2011

Staff retreat at Lucille’s BBQ – March 2011

The youth group surprised Jen (my bday twin) and I with birthday desserts

Birthday gift – my favorite slippers – March 2011

Summer Starbucks and grocery runs with Mamaw

Kayla and I made Emily a ‘Welcome Home’ sign

Summer BBQ with the small group

Breakfast with Jen and Becca before church

Summer shakes from Chick-fil-a

Movie nights with Emily, Kayla, and Matt

Love these two!!

Sunrise

Sunset

beach bonfire

My sister finally came home from Russia – Summer 2011

While moving, I found many old pictures

Sisters

Beach bonfire – Summer 2011

Kate exhausted after moving – summer 2011

beach bonfire – summer 2011

Kayla at her summer beach house – summer 2011

Emily, Kayla, and I

Amy and I at Olive Garden – Summer 2011

yummy drinks – summer 2011 
Ashley and I eating yummy purple icecream – summer 2011

One of the many pool side days – summer 2011

my love, Kate

Date with Amy to Basken Robins

My best friend Taylor and I – Clash n’ bowl Fall 2011

Breakfast with Emily before she left for Seattle

Sweet, sweet quiet times – summer 2011
first gift under my pillow – fall 2011

gift under my pillow – fall 2011

beach bonfire with 1C – September 2011

gift under my pillow – fall 2011

gift under my pillow – fall 2011

Kate in all her beauty

gift under my pillow – fall 2011

hanging out in the box with Jim and Paige – fall 2011

gift under my pillow – fall 2011

gift under my pillow – fall 2011

making signs with the ladies of 1C – fall 2011

gifts under my pillow – fall 2011

shopping with Bon Bon and the hall at Target

The 1C mascot

Jenta and Weezer

pretty in pink

my residents made my bed, so sweet

Simmon’s Hall Fall Pajama Ball – September 2011

scary drive to disneyland

Jordan and I in Disneyland – Fall 2011

Precious Quiet Times – Fall 2011

crocheting  

one of the many, many, many coffee’s I consumed Fall semester 

Kugel Walk soon to happen in May 2012

pretzel bread from briscos

coffee on the way to Seattle

Colbie Concert in Seattle with Emily

Brian and Sarah – soon to be Mr. and Mrs. – Seattle, WA

Emily and I at Jai Thai Restaurant in Seattle, WA

yum!

on the way home

yum yum yum

my welcome back sign

My youth girls – Valentine’s Dinner – Spring 2011

Fellow Youth Leaders – Valentines Dinner – Spring 2011

My sweet friend Andrea and I – Valentines Dinner

Photoshoot – Spring 2011

Photoshoot – Spring 2011

Photoshoot – Spring 2011

Photoshoot – spring 2011

Photoshoot – Spring 2011

Photoshoot – Spring 2011

Liz, Sarah, and I at Disneyland – Spring break 2011

Sarah Almost-Frausto and I at disneyland – spring break 2011

Rose Ceremony – Simmon’s Staff for 2011-2012

Matt and I at Carissa and Stanton’s Wedding – Summer 2011

Some of the fam – Callaway Wedding – summer 2011

Callaway wedding – summer 2011

friends who I have grown to love – fall 2011

Love these girls – fall 2011

Emily and I – Seattle – Fall 2011 
Gum wall – Seattle, WA – October 2011

View of Seattle Skyline from Kerry Park – October 2011

Seattle, WA – October 2011

Julia and I at Youth Summer camp – Summer 2011

Youth girls and I – Summer 2011

Andrea and I – Summer 2011

Res Life wedding reception – RA Training August 2011

Kelly and I – Res Life wedding reception- RA training August 2011

Res Life wedding reception – RA training August 2011

Bekah and I – August 2011

1C girls at Simmons Hall Fall Pajama Ball – Fall 2011

Some of the girls and I at FBC Norco – Summer 2011

Jess and I – Yule – December 2011

Liz and I – Yule – December 2011

Jess and I – Yule – December 2011

Miss CBU and I – Yule – December 2011 

Jess and I – Yule – December 2011

Jess and I – Yule – December 2011

Bekah and I – Yule – December 2011

Tyler and I – Yule – December 2011

Tyler and I – Yule – December 2011

To Be Continued… =)

I thought I loved you then…

There is a song that I just love by Brad Paisley entitled “Then.”

The song talks about the girl he is in love with and how the first night he saw her he was “mesmerized” by her. He sings about each step in life with her and how after each step he says, “I thought I loved you then.” He talks about his future with this woman and all the milestones they will soon reach and then sings one of my favorite lines: “What I can’t see is how I’m ever gonna love you more, but I’ve said that before”

I used to sing this to a man and meant it when I sang it. But, as time has gone by I realized now how this song would better be sung in light of the fact that down the line, those relationships end (whether by death or a sever in the relationship of whatever sort). I am not trying to be debbie-downer – bear with me.

I was singing it this morning to myself and was thinking how I could say that line to the Lord at each milestone of my life that I have crossed: “I thought I loved you then.” My whole life, since I stood in the corner of my family’s kitchen with my brother leading me in the sinner’s prayer, I have said that I loved the Lord. But, with each year that passes, I understand more and more about who I am as a person (sinful to the core) and my deep, deep need for a savior to cleanse me of all of my sins. Each time I step one foot into the word or take a look at my life, I realize how great God is and how helpless I am without Him.

As I spent my time singing that song about a relationship that was soon fleeting, I can look back on my life to a relationship that is unfailing and will never end because that relationship is led by the Lord who is perfect, who is everlasting, and who will never fail me. The Lord has governed and led my life with goodness and faithfulness. He has never led me anywhere that was too difficult for me to handle, but promises me that through His strength, I can do all things. My outlook on that fleeting relationship was wrong; that love would increase in time as it should, yes, but it was not the end-all of my life. My life is worth so much more than a fleeting relationship or crush on a guy. I can deeply love as a human being to other human beings, but it must be in the appropriate view of who I am in comparison of who God is. God is the one who will never fail me, not some guy or even my friends. I view people in this sense and love them with a love that Christ loved me: in humility, grace, and forgiveness. I pray that in the future after the moment that I press the “publish post” button that I can live out what was written above to the glory of God.

I desire to love deeply with another human being, but I desire to love the Lord even deeper. I desire to understand better who Christ has made me to be and to live that out to the fullest. I desire to look at my sin, the ugly, disgusting, and grotesque sin, that is in my life and be able to see better the grace that the Lord has lavished on me. I pray that this can become possible in my life.

To Be Continued… =)


Side note: To make this clear, by posting about past relationships I have been apart of, in no way am I pointing out failures of those individuals in order to make myself look better. I am just as sinful as the next person and need the grace of Christ just as much if not more than they do. The severing of those relationships has been more my fault than any one of theirs. I hope that those reading this blog can look at my past relationships and not see failure, but can see them as I see them: governed and ruled by the Lord for his glory even despite my faults and sins within them.

sick beds and prison cells

This spoke straight to my discontent heart this morning:
“Thank Me for the conditions that are requiring you to be still. Do not spoil these quiet hours by wishing  them away, waiting impatiently to be active again. Some of the greatest works in My kingdom have been done from sick beds and prison cells. Instead of resenting the limitations of a weakened body, search for My way in the midst of these very circumstances. Limitations can be liberating when your strongest desire is living close to ME. 
    Quietness and trust enhance your awareness of My Presence with you. Do not despise these simple ways of serving Me. Although you feel cut off from the activity of the world, your quiet trust makes a powerful statement in spiritual realms. My Strength and Power show themselves most effective in weakness.
~Sarah Young in “Jesus Calling”
Saw this on Jana Mikels’ Blog. Enjoy!! ❤


To Be Continued… =)

My life (well, the last two months)…in pictures!

My life has been quite the whirlwind the last two months.

Between school work, RA events, school events, church, youth group, my own person life & sanity, finals, papers, etc., I have been quite the busy woman. I thought it would be nice to include pictures from the last two-ish months of my life….

Enjoy!

carving pumpkins on the hall

Waiting in line for In n’ Out

at the CBU Christmas Party

Sister

My sons 
Jordan, Trey, and I

Tyler and I – Yule

Jessica and I – Yule

Our friendship.

Beautiful Sister

My hall for Deck the Halls Christmas event… We won!!!!  (1C became Narnia)

Mission Inn for the Festival of Lights

Casey’s Cupcakes Christmas Decorations

Some of the beautiful girls on my hall

My yummy cupcake

Hot Cocoa

Yum yum yum.

My hall and I

So beautiful

This picture, to me, epitomizes Christmas at the Mission Inn. Literally, my favorite place in the world. 

I am so thankful to be surrounded by such an amazing community of men and women who have the same goals – to glorify the Lord with their lives. I couldn’t imagine my life any other way than it has turned out and every day I am thankful for the life the Lord has given me and directed me to.

If I had chosen my own path and my own way, I would not be on this wonderful hall with such wonderful and beautiful women. I wouldn’t have gotten the chance to be on the wonderful staff that has encouraged me and uplifted me and challenged me to grow (I love all my fellow RAs sooo much!!!). I wouldn’t have gotten close to girls who have now become my best friends (you know who you are!). I would not have gotten to even have a senior year of college because my plan was to get out of CBU as fast as I could and move on with my life – and I am so glad I didn’t!!

I am just so thankful that I am not in charge of my own life and that the Lord knows perfectly where he wants me to be. Whenever I try to plan out my own life and take the reigns, it never turns out well and I am stressed in the process. Seriously, thank the Lord he is who he is and faithful beyond measure! =)

God is good all the time. All the time God is good!

To Be Continued… =)

Stars and 99 Balloons

If you haven’t seen this video, you need to (warning: it is a tear-jerker):

This is such a beautiful example of the selfless love that Christ calls us to each and every day. This is also a beautiful example of how Christ loved the church. He sacrificed his whole life so that we might have life just as the parents of little Elliot sacrificed so much for their little baby boy: time, energy, sleep, resources, etc. 

As I am sitting here wiping the tears off my face (all while I am supposed to be doing homework HA!), I am thankful that lives like the parents of Elliot exist. They show us how to trust and rely on the Lord in difficult times…times that should almost be unbearable.

A great example of this in my own life are the lives of Andrea and Brandon Burns. Some of the most godly and amazing people I know. They have such a heart and passion for the gospel. It just astounds me every time I think about their story and how the Lord brought them through a difficult time. They have been those people who have sacrificed so much for me, for others, and for their little Star. People like Elliot’s parents and Brandon and Andrea are the people who change lives. They show the world what it is really like to know and trust the Lord and love Him with their entire being!

The Lord is good!

HERE is a link to Andrea and Brandon’s blog (and THIS post shows a little more specifically just one of the ways in how the Lord has used them as an example to me in my life and the lives of many others). Enjoy!

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Addition:
Thank you to my good friend Amy – she just shared with me another great story similar to 99 Baloons. This is the link to the video of the story of Jaxton’s life. And here is the link to the video of the message that the father of Jaxton shared. It is just as moving. God is good! I pray that I could be as great of a mother someday as the three mother’s listed above were to their babies who lasted three months, 2 weeks, who hadn’t even been born yet; they loved with an incomprehensible love. I am thankful to know their stories of faith and to know that my father in heaven loves me even more than that! Thank you, Lord!

To Be Continued… =)

busy week.

Somehow, I am not sure exactly how, but somehow I made it through this week. One of thee busiest weeks of my life. The next two will be just as busy. I am so ready for tonight and for Christmas break. 

I love you, O Lord, my strength. -Psalm 18:1 ESV

Christmas 2010

PS. Can you believe it is December? Count down till Christmas starts now….well, yesterday 😉

To Be Continued… =)