This song hits WAY too close to home for me.
It is so weird how close I am to graduation.
It is crazy to me that I am pursuing being on my own with no support from anyone (and out of state at that).
Have I gone crazy?!
I think so.
Some days nothing could stop me from being “on my own” and “grown up” and other days I wanna go curl up in a ball in the corner and have my mommy come find me and comfort me.
It’s a curl up in a ball in the corner kind of night.
Watch this video:
Life is crazy how just a year ago my plans were completely different. Literally, my life has taken a 180 degree turn. And now I am no longer doing grad school. I am single. I have my own car that I paid for on my own. I am an RA to freshman woman not in apartments. I have only 9 units left to graduate. I am wanting to pursue something that has no for sure, final destination at the end of the road. It almost feels as if I am getting in my car, packing up all my stuff, turning out of my drive way, and going until I reach some destination that feels “right”, but what is right?! AHHH. So not a comforting or safe feeling.
I have to remind myself that life doesn’t work that way. And life with Christ MOST DEFINITELY doesn’t work that way. The Lord has an extremely safe plan for me, but that word safe has a totally different definition in His vocabulary. His definition for safe includes me completely wrapped up in His grace where nothing on this world can harm me because my eternal destination is eternity with Him. My definition for safe has me staying at my parents home until I’m old and wrinkly. Ay yi yi.
Anyways, enough of my ranting.
I do truly and completely trust the Lord and His perfect plan for my life. The process to getting to what lies ahead in 6 months is a little scary, but I know he has it all completely under control! One of the perfect lines in that song is “here’s a map and here’s a Bible if you ever lose your way…” That hits the nail on the head…
Lord, you are good.
To Be Continued… =)
sarahecooley.com 