It is May 1st. How the heck did that happen? Where did my Junior year of college go? As things are coming to a close, I am so thankful.
There are plenty things in my life that I can choose to be sour and bitter about, but the Lord has given me grace and has allowed me to see his goodness in all things. There are things to cry over and be upset about, but the Lord has given me grace and has allowed me to see his goodness in all things.
This year has been quite the whirlwind and rollercoaster. I never knew that I would go through half of the things I have gone through this year. In fact, I saw things going the completely opposite way. It is funny how that works, isn’t it?
Though, it is somewhat disappointing and discouraging that those things did not work out, I am also so thankful and grateful for the Lord’s protection. He has provided for me and protected me and fought for me in more instances than I can even begin to write on a little, silly blog like this one.
All I can say is that the Lord is so good! Sitting in Starbucks, fighting tears, and wondering what will come about in the month of May, the summer, and my final year of CBU, I still can say that the Lord is good and his mercies are new every day.
As he has provided, protected, and fought for me, I can do nothing but be grateful!
Though, some things are coming to an end, I can say that they were times well spent, relationships that glorified the Lord, events that were well put together, people who were well invested in, classes that helped me gain much knowledge (despite my laziness in them a lot of this last year 😉 ). Yet, I can say that I do have regrets. I regret the time not invested into many, many different things, the love of Christ that I missed out in sharing with people, the time I spent sitting on my couch instead of knocking on doors and calling residents, times spent sitting on Facebook instead of doing homework or reading the Word. Those things were mistakes, and I can sit and feel sorry for myself and upset that I didn’t choose different choices, or I can take those at face-value and RUN the opposite direction.
And that’s what I will do. I will run into the arms of Christ. Run towards goals that are glorifying to him and that bring him honor. Run towards people who will encourage me and lift me closer to him. Run toward the gospel of Christ because without it I am nothing, without it I will fail like I have failed time and time again. Run toward the joy that Christ died on the cross so that I can have. Run toward the peace of having hope in him. Run toward his glorious cross.
So as things close, I will probably cry (And secretly have already cried every night this week haha). Not because I feel sorry for myself. Not because they are the end of the world, because they are not. But, rather, because they were good, even great, things and are ending. Because the people that were in my life were great and I love them and will miss them dearly. Because the things I was involved with were amazing. Because the Lord was so good in those times and gave me so much grace that I don’t/didn’t deserve one, single bit. I will cry for the good times that were. I will cry for the great times that will come. Lord, I am thankful, thankful for your provision and protection.
To Be Continued… =)
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