Month: June 2009

It’s not about me…

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My Wish… Rascal Flatts…
I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you’re faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin’ till you find the window,
If it’s cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you’re out there getting where you’re getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God’s grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you’re out there getting where you’re getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you’re out there getting where you’re getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big

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I’ve been thinking a lot about what I would like in my future for those I love. And this song absolutely hits the nail on the head. There is one thing in this song that I would change. Instead of it saying “This is my wish” I would say “this is my prayer.” Every time I sing this song I sing it over all my friends and family! I love it! =) This next week I will be going on a summer camp and the thing that keeps popping up is the verse Philippians 2:3-4 “Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.” In the book, “Purpose Driven Life” (by Rick Warren) the first line is, “It’s not about me.” That could not be more true. It is not about me. I’ve been talking about this a lot and trying to figure it out! So much in life “is not about me.” In relationships, it’s not about me. In my job, its not about me. In ministry, its definitely not about me. In friendships, it’s not about me.

This summer is not going to be about me. So much of it is going to stretch me and mold me and if it was going to be about me I would be staying at a 5 star hotel and not in a house with people that I’ve never met! God has not called us to a life of comfort. He even tells us in Matthew 5 in the beatitudes:
“Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.
Blessed are the merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they will be called sons of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me.
Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.”

We are blessed when we are “poor in spirit…Mourning…meek…hunger and thirst for righteousness…merciful…pure in heart…peacemakers…persecuted…insulted…falsely accused…”

I think that is why the song “My Wish” is so appealing… It is exactly what God wants of us. He wants us to give our best to others, to pray for others, to share a smile with someone, to hold someone’s burden for them, to be a friend.

“It’s not about me.”

RECENTLY:

June 11th, 2009
Bekah’s Graduation…So weird, but soo cool! I love my sister!!!

June 12th, 2009
I got to hang out with Emily and Kayla… =) I will miss them this summer and I have missed them! They truly have blessed my life so much…much more then they know…

Next Week:
I will be at Disneyland, Knott’s Berry Farm, Balboa Beach, Raging Rivers….the camp is called Wipe Out… Pray God changes these kids lives…. and it sounds selfish asking for this, but mine as well. I know he’s going to teach me a lot in this next week. It will be a hard week… but then again, “It’s not about me.”

To Be Continued…

New Adventures

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So I’ve decided to start blogging. I think that a lot of what I’m going to be doing this summer will have a lot of growth attached to it and I thought it would be cool to share it with the world, or at least my close friends and family. I’m not really sure whats going to happen this summer, but I’m sure the Lord is very aware and already has everything lined up for me. I’m sure he has got a million things ready to slap me in the face and humble me and break me down and mold me. Who knows. Some how, in the midst of all the excitement for moving to Northern California, nerves come into the picture.
First of all, I’ve never lived “on my own.” Okay, sure, I’ve lived out of the house, but I’ve always been free to come home any time. In fact, it became a regular thing to come home and have movie nights with my friends. It’s hard to imagine not being able to come home and talk and cry to my mom. Or eat a “mom” cooked meal (even home-cooked at someone elses house isn’t quite the same). I’ve grown so accustomed to being comfortable that stepping out of that comfort zone becomes terrifying. Second of all, waiting is a hard thing for me. There is a long story behind this fear, but I know that in God’s timing, I will know. God’s definitely been working on my patience, which is a good thing but also a very hard thing.
Third of all, vulnerability. That doesn’t really make sense. but I am scared of being vulnerable. I have to put everything I have on the line in order for God to use me! Why am I scared? Security, I suppose, is being taken away. I have to TRUST GOD. That is terrifying. It shouldn’t be. He is the Omnipotent, Omniscient, Omnipresent God. He is ALL knowing. He is ALL Powerful. He is everywhere. He is in control of everything. In Psalm 139, it talks about him knitting me together in my mothers womb and how he knew all my days before one of them came to be. How the heck do I not trust him!? This is something I always struggle with. It should be easy to trust in Him, and yet it is the hardest thing imaginable. I seem to trust the ever-failing human being before I trust him. So, learning to be vulnerable and letting him see through me. Being transparent!!
Also, Hillsong International Leadership College somehow is being put on my heart. I don’t know what it means for me, but I’m definitely praying about what that means for me.
A song came on tonight by Tenth Avenue North, Beloved, after I had read Jeremiah 3. Jeremiah 3 talks about Israel whoring itself to other men. And how they had divorced and corrupted the land. Then the song “Beloved” came on and talked of the same thing. It is written about the book of Hosea, I believe, but same general concept. God wants all of us, yet we go and make a fool out of him. We go and try to find satisfaction in someone else. Here are the Lyrics. Enjoy.
“Beloved” -TENTH AVENUE NORTH
Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
Give me your life
Lust and the lies
The past you’re afraid I might see
You’ve been running away from me

You’re my beloved
Lover I’m yours
Death shall not part us
It’s you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we’ll be
Our Love it unites us
It binds you to me
It’s a mystery

Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
I’m the giver of life
I’ll clothe you in white
My immaculate bride you will be
Oh come running home to me yeah

You’re my beloved
Lover I’m yours
and Death shall not part us
It’s you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we’ll be
Our Love it unites us
and it binds you to me yea now now

Well you’ve been a mistress, my wife
Chasing lovers it won’t satisfy
Won’t you let me make you my bride
You will drink of my lips
And taste new life

You’re my beloved
Lover I’m yours
Death shall not part us
It’s you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we’ll be
Our Love it unites us
it binds you to me

You’re my beloved
Forever we’ll be
Our love it unites us
And it binds you to me
It’s a mystery

This Week:

I got to take my mom to Disneyland for her birthday after surprising her with a party the day before! It truly was a blessing to be able to “fill her cup” and show her love! =)

To Be Continued…